Today I am remembering one year ago, the Sunday before Abram was born. It was his due date, Sept 23. I was having so much anxiety. I was wanting to go into labor so badly. I drank castor oil and had anxiety about that. (Although my anxiety over worrying about the side effects far outweighed the actual experience...it really wasn't that bad.)
We were both anxious. We really wanted him to come that day. We took walks, we went on a drive just to get out for a bit. We paced the floor, at least it felt like that. Looking back at that day and the anxiety we felt...it compares not at all, to the anxiety we have felt everyday since our boy left.
It's crazy how much can happen in a year...
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I know. That is the one thing I HATE about life. The uncertainty of it all!!!!
thank you for sharing your thoughts...a few from me about the day your precious abe was born (i hope you don't mind).
i was so excited that you two were bringing a little boy into the world. i remember feeling so excited and anxious for you...
liv and i came to the hospital to visit. i remember talking to you on the phone and you telling me that he was so beautiful and so perfect, that you hadn't seen a more beautiful boy.... it is true, that little boy is the most perfect. you were so proud that day, and still are.
i remember feeling envious of the confidence you had in your voice about becoming a mother. it comes so naturally to you.
i wont ever forget that day. that day you two had a different looks on your faces, held your bodies differently than i have ever seen them held. your presence changed. you became parents to perfect abe.
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