11 weeks, 6 days since our boy left us. We instantaneously became different people and know we will never be the same again. Having a baby changes you in so many ways, but losing your child causes you to view everything in life so differently.....absolutely everything. People are starting to ask us "Is it getting any easier yet?" They seem surprised when I tell them that if anything it seems to be getting harder. As time goes on, we are faced with more lost moments and milestones, and our yearning for those moments gets stronger. It is very scary to imagine living the rest of your life with this kind of pain and despair. We get strength from each other, our friends and family, but above all we get comfort from Abram. He has never left us....Abe Saves.
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I always hated that comment, "Is is getting any easier?" I had a neighbor ask me after a month, "I would of thought by now it would of gotten easier?" NO! Everyday is another day of yearning and missing, but time does heal. People always said that to me, but it is true. I can talk about Linden like I can talk about Lauren. People are always so apologetic, "Oh I am sorry!" but I don't need their aplogies. Linden's life just took another path than Lauren's. I am proud of both. I am so glad you started a blog, now I can see how you are without bugging you. Keep blogging for me. Treat it like a journal, you won't regret it.
you won't stop counting. glad that you guys are here in blog land...oxoxo
I count for you too...
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