Thanks to all that have remembered my birthday and wished me well. Birthdays are just another thing make you realize how loved you are. I am fortunate to be surrounded by the friends and family that I have. As good as it feels, there is and always will be that empty hole that is just never filled. I am missing my boy pretty intensely today. We went to visit his resting place and took him some of the flowers that were brought to me. It felt surprisingly good but so hard at the same time. It is so sad that Abram never got to experience his first birthday. Never got to eat cake, never got to be sang to. I'm afraid I am here again, fighting the bitterness. So on this birthday I wish for peace and contentment, as my ultimate birthday wish is not possible. Above all my sadness today, I feel pride for being Abram's mother.
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jamie - i spoke to trish a few weeks ago and learned about abe. i got your address from her but haven't been able to write anything to you.. what can i say to you except it broke my heart and i sobbed for you and josh. the only thing i can say is that i have been thinking about and praying for you. i know i haven't seen you for years and years and i only met sweet abe one time, but no one should have to feel what you are now. my babies are just one month older than abe and i can't imagine the pain and hurt and anger... it hit very close to home to me, but i know that doesn't make your heart hurt less. keep honoring abram with stories of his life while you heal from losing him. i know you will never be the same, and you shouldn't, but i hope this birthday brings much love, peace and happiness.
-meghan (christensen)
Melanie told us to check out you site. We think about you and Josh all the time and hope that you are doing well. Of there is anything you need from I'd please let us know. We love you!
happy belated birthday Jamie. I just wanted to tell you that I think you're a wonderful mother. and i'm sure Abram would agree.
Love, Maggy
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